u

Thinking of u..thinking of u...arghh...all is about u..

i'm crazy enough wehh..please la.

stop it nadea!!

all the pretty things about my life seems gone.

totally gone at all...

why i'm being so weak when it comes about u...why?

i just can't understand myself.

i'm so sorry if i'm always act like childish and not immature enough to

understand everything about u.

BUT i have a feeling.

sometimes i feel just me,trying hard.

i don't see any effort comes from u.

isn't it worth for me?

waiting for something that unsure.

sometimes i'm tired of sacrifices everything.

at last what were i got only lie,betrayal,like i'm being used.

maybe...

i have to start rethink about myself.i have to.the journey are still long.

i want to catch up things up and get back on the track.

i have to change the way i'm thinking.the way i act..the way i treat people.

the way i treat u..

the moral is-i think i shouldn't plan everything in my life....its only become more miserable..

more hard to be such as our planning..more complicated.

just put a target for future...do it FOR mySELF!

and stay on the track...just follow the flow.

tk payah nak kusut2 kepala..

the question is,can i?

hurm..

just let time decide everything..

meet old friends

just wake up from bed...

it's Sunday~lazy day.

Last night i met some old friends..

since michael come over here from Kulim.

we hang out watched movie and bowling with some other friends..

(michael,me,si busyuk,ms zana,afosz,n michael's friend)

we enjoyed the moment...although everyone da start menguap2..

especially me..^____^

it's fun...dpt continue cerita2 lama.

one day before we all da hang out.

tk puas lepak,mkn2,borak sakan, ketawa kuat2 @ Pak Li Kopitiam Sek 7, S.Alam

(bukan 'pak ali' yer..sian mereka2 berkenaan yg pusing2 bnyk kali nk cari 'pak ali')

teringat zaman college.

at least in 1 month 2,3,4 kali convoi tgk wayang ramai2...(wlaupun keesokan harinya exm)

'sate kajang'....argh...since tinggalkan college da lama x ke sana.

thanks dearest friend.

bila lagi kita bole reunite everyone.hurm..

it's sound difficult.but nothing impossible.

aim for our next plan~'Mount Kinabalu'...yeah~

invite more people.

but can i?.......with my condition now?hurm...hurmmmmmm...

i must recover!

i must stay healthy!

i'm strong!

i wanna live life to the fullest!!

hope this will be realised..

i'm not really enjoyed last night actually..(switch mood).why?why?why???hurmm

♥ nadea

Someday....

Someday i will go...

and that time......i'll make sure that i'm not cry for any people anymore..

but people will cry for me....

i'm too tired...

i'm too tired to pretend nothing..

i'm trying so hard n so long...

weird

;(

Wedding Celebrations..

fuhhh..this month full with wedding ceremony...

every weeks ada invitation..

the conclusions-june is bulan berjodoh..^___^

last week attended my cousin's wedding..

congratulation my dear cousin,fizah and her husband khairul.

the theme was silver-pink..hurm..okie la.

and today is my friend's big day.my ex-classmate.

congrattttttssss adib and zura...^^,

but i cant attend their wedding due to some problem..

since i don't have a transport right now..

sorry weh,klau aku ada kereta da smpai da..sorg2 pun ta kisah huhu...

mode:terkilan sangat2....!!

i just pass a gift to my other friend.tq afosz.

the following week is my uncle's wedding..

and i should be there...since their family quite close with mine.

takmo terkilan lagi ths time!huhu..

**someone just make me more aggrieved just now......

;-/

Sometimes..

SOMETIMES, the last thing you want comes in first, the first thing you want never comes...

and the unpredictable thing ALWAYS come.

am i not strong enough ?

AM I NOT STRONG ENOUGH ? ? ?

AM I NOT STRONG ENOUGH ? ? ?

AM I NOT STRONG ENOUGH ? ? ?

AM I NOT STRONG ENOUGH ? ? ?

gosh;(

i'm dealing with my emotions more than my disease..

the other problems still keeps disrupt me..

pls nadea..big no no for now...

i'm strong...i'm strong...i'm strongggggggggggg!!!!

DON'T EVER judge a book by its cover.pls ppl!

until today..

thank God i'm still breathing...until today.

i learnt so much things in my life..

the phrase that i want to express at this moment..

'don't judge a book by its cover'..that means...

+ don't ever determine the worth of something based on its appearance

+ don't ever judge people or things by what they look like from the outside..

from my experience..even the ppl u know well, u can't simply judge them..

because life is unexpected..

and

human are not perfect..

if u keep judge a ppl u have no time to love them-Mother Teresa

life is too short..

never asked why ?... no reason...u ppl should b know the answer..

i just want to remind..

never ever okay~

♥ nadea

dear God;i need them..

i still need both of them...

;(

dugaan

yes..tuhan sentiasa menduga kita dalam pelbgai bentuk.

once again..aku di duga.ouh god.the same disease.

;(

this time i feel more terrible than the last time.

suddenly i'm bloated all over the body..it's suck..

my weight extremely increase more than 7kg because

i'm carry an excessive water in my body.

my joint feel pain. da macam nenek2 rasa.huhu

xtau mcm mn boleh kena balik..

tp itulah kebesaran tuhan..

it show that he can give or take back everything,anytime.

but things happen for a reason..pasti ada hikmah disebalik dugaan ni,

at this moment..

i just pray to god.

**This is how God showed his love for me. He is a mighty love that has no beginning and no ending..But how cn i survive?...God..!Yes,only God will open the way even though its complicated.cz there is no guarantee that this life is easy...if u do good things, good things will happen to u. InsyaAllah;))

love.

Ask me to give my life, I will.

Ask me to bare my soul, I’ll do it.

I would do anything that you ask.

There’s only one thing I can not seem to do.

Please don't ask me to stop loving you.

how much i hate u but i still love u the most.

;((

i just can't.

♥ nadea