thursday 11th june 2009

just wake up......

hurm........hope for a better day...

+_*

calm

....calm................at least for this moment..

I'M TIRED.....REALLY TIREDDDDDD

-_-

love;

.nadea

hurm..

spending the most entire day on my bed..

crying for the reason that i'm not sure even..

i just want to cryyyy......

and yes i'm crying a lot lately..

-_-,

just let the harm in my heart growing bigger..my heart cried..

and feel such i'm carrying a big stone in my head.no one knows..i guess no one cares too..

as long i can handle it...as long i can pretend the taste of happiness in my face..

its between me,myself..

tq life for torturing me..it make me can't wait to say hi to another world..

may i rest in peace later.

PAST...CURRENT.... FUTURE..

It's difficult to see from the surface.

But everything goes in and it stings..

Have u ever felt hurt before??felt down??

I’m just so confuse this time...

I’m confused with everything about life...

People always judge from the surface...they're never think and try to understand what matter inside..

They’re only saw smile on this face and thought "ohh..She just sooo happy with her life..."

but the truth...

I’m just not recognize myself anymore ..

every seconds...

I lost my way,..

A moment ago-I forgot about my passion...my aim.......*God..Please grant me*

I don’t even know to whom that I can speak out...to whom that I can express my feelings..

i felt that i shouldn’t talk about it to anyone so I’m just let it stay in my heart..

and write on this screen..

i just talk to myself that I’m not going to lose my future..

the future is in my hand..i have to fight for it..

and it starts from now on...

i'm worried that anything could happened to my life anytime, that will really hit me..-

the only thing i need to remember that time-i have a beautiful family next to me that always give me a support..

gosh...they need me more than anyone..

I love my family more than anything...My mum,my sis, my brothers. They’re come 1st even though I cant express it by words..

I’m just about to say sorry if i have done wrong before and really hurt u all-my heart..

Deep inside my heart i just want a perfect life but nothing was perfect...

The unexpected always come...it’s a fate...qada' and qadar..

As a human i have to take it and face it.

I’m touched with one quote-

"The dreams of the FUTURE better than the history of the PAST"

So now I’m working on my FUTURE and let the PAST to be pass..It’s only hurt...

love;

.nadea

1.2.3.4

Give me more loving then i've ever had.

Make it all better when i'm feeling sad.

Tell me that i'm special even when i know i'm not.

Make me feel good when i hurt so bad.

Barely gettin mad,

Im so glad i found you.

I love bein around you.

You make it easy,

As easy as 1 2,1 2 3 4.

There's only one thing two do three words four you.

I love you.

There's only one way two say those three words

And that's what i'll do.

I love you.

Give me more lovin from the very start.

Piece me back together when i fall apart.

Tell me things you never even tell your closest friends.

Make me feel good when i hurt so bad.

Best that i've had.

Im so glad that i found you.

I love being around you.

You make it easy as easy as 1 2,1 2 3 4.

One two three four i love you.

I love you..

by Plain White T's..

i felt the words are AWESOME..dont you?

love;

.nadea

s.t.r.e.s.s

Dissertation+Presentation+Examination...then Final Report for 2 diffrnt Project...uwaaa;((

those works are killing me slowly hardly...

there is only about one week and half to finish up all those troubles that currently torturing me..

arghhhhh....>_<......!

21st may-presentation cimd(construction management and integrated design)

23rd may-water and environmental engineering(exam)

25th may-submit report for cimd and Research Project presentation

28th may-submit report for RP..

29th may-dah merdekaa..yahoooooo!!!

BUT......

i dont want to be failed.....!!!

this time the only things i cn do is pray pray prayyy for my success..

and keep doing my works...

i dnt want to think how it is goin to be at last...i'm just thinking about to finish up my works..ya...that my passion for now...

SEMANGAT!i need uuuuu......ajaa

I ASKED GOD....

I asked God to take away my pain.
God said, No.
It is not for me to take away,
but for you to give it up.

I asked God to make my handicapped child whole.
God said, No.
His spirit is whole,
his body is only temporary.

I asked God to grant me patience.
God said, No.
Patience is a by-product of tribulations;
it isn't granted, it is learned.

I asked God to give me happiness.
God said, No.
I give you blessings.
Happiness is up to you.

I asked God to spare me pain.
God said, No.
Suffering draws you apart from worldly cares and brings
you closer to me.

I asked God to make my spirit grow.
God said, No.
You must grow on your own,
but I will prune you to make you fruitful.

I asked God for all things that I might enjoy life.
God said, No.
I will give you life,
so that you may enjoy all things.

I ask God to help me love others, as much as He loves me.
God said..Ahhhhh...finally you have the idea.

love;

.nadea

16th APRIL 200916th MAY 2009

its 2.45 am....and i'm so damn boredddddddddddd..... i'm about to sleep when i posted ths entry even i da terlebih2 tido tk sedar diri...uhuhu...

waiting for mira to come here,because she need to borrow my laptop to do some works.

(mira da dtg nti then i cn continue my journey to lalaland...heheheh...) 

eh....ok.forget about tht.thats not the main purpose i'm writing just now..

ianya adalah utk mengewish my roomate 

a very HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!SWEET 23rd years anniversary of u....

hehehheheh...

p/s:yea.....da besya daa....thun dpn nk kawen daa dia...

kwang kwang kwang...hehehe^_^

love;

nadea

YOUR CALL.....i'm wating..

i'm currently addicted to this song...da simpan lama album dia ni..baru teragak nk layan..
thats it....Your Call!!

Waiting for your call, I'm sick, call I'm angry
call I'm desperate for your voice
Listening to the song we used to sing
In the car, do you remember
Butterfly, Early Summer
It's playing on repeat,
Just like when we would meet
Like when we would meet

'Cause I was born to tell you I love you
And I am torn to do what I have to,
To make you mine
Stay with me tonight

Stripped and polished, I am new, I am fresh
I am feeling so ambitious, you and me, flesh to flesh
'Cause every breath that you will take
When you are sitting next to me
Will bring life into my deepest hopes,
What's your fantasy?

'Cause I was born to tell you I love you
And I am torn to do what I have to,
To make you mine
Stay with me tonight

And I'm tired of being all alone, and this solitary moment makes me want to come back home
x4

'Cause I was born to tell you I love you
And I am torn to do what I have to,
To make you mine
Stay with me tonight

I was born to tell you I love you
And I am torn to do what I have to,
To make you mine
Stay with me tonight


by Secondhand Serenade

HELLO bloggerss

it has been so a while that have no updating in my blog.. i'm just too busy with my life,my study and everything..
ikutkan...there is a lot of things that i want to share hear.. a lot of precious moment happened in my life... but as i said...i'm just too busy and not in the updating mood.. i really need the 'MOOD'...hehehe...
maybe i'm not a good writer just like a few of my friends that can impress their feelings through blogging..
erm...okie..memandangkan lamaaa gilerrr2 tk update..so,i just wanna put smthing here ... (*ini khas bg memenuhi permintaan cik mohd amy yg berkali2 mntk i updte,,tp saya TAKMAUU!!hehe)
just wanna put some latest pics of me..the pictures can impress a thousand words...^_^

PORT DICKSON..yea.i went to PD a few weeks ago(lama suda)hehe..actually my aim for the day is just want to take a picture of my case study area(jeti lama PD) and get some infomation there..but at last, it become a mini vacation for us(me,my roomie and 1 friend of mine)...how can i say,,we just love to take a picture..thats human nature..right?weeee



one of the best photo captured by me..actually i want to take a picture of the airplane..heheh..
"Clouds are fluffy like a cat.If you flew in an airplane you’d be higher then a cloud, just like that.."
*can u see the airplane?????that dot..ya..haha

A Cloud withdrew from the Sky
Superior Glory be
But that Cloud and its Auxiliaries
Are forever lost to me

Had I but further scanned
Had I secured the Glow
In an Hermetic Memory
It had availed me now.

Never to pass the Angel
With a glance and a Bow
Till I am firm in Heaven
Is my intention now.

by Emily Dickinson

i L.O.V.E this picture.thanks a lot to the photographer..^_^
top:background old PD ferry terminal(jetty)..my project case study area~

dekat2 ngan pantai cahaya.time ni dia da start wat iklan gigi..hihihi



me,myself^_+


go green...go....go!!!


me with my roomie(actually ex-roomie) aka my best bitchin buddy..huahua

thats my friend(mira!)kekeke...dpt snap gmbar belakang jer..but dont bother bout the mira,yg tgh menghayati keindahan pantai tu..
i L.O.V.E. the AWANSSSS!!!!

jalan punya jalan...kami jumpa rabbit!!!!!!cute seko2!
photo:itu dia those rabbits yg comelll..
unfortunately i cannot enter that cage!if not seko2 suda ku angkat.but...actually saya takut dukung rabbit..orng cakap rabbit garang...ye ker????


thats was a bride and groom capturing their most precious moment...

nak selit skit::


Together today, a man and women…
With the solemnity of their beings
Vows of eternity to be exchanged
Committed to living lovingly as one…

A bride and groom, with the warmness of their souls
Happy about tomorrow, and the future before them
Their hearts are beating the rhythm of joy…And their radiance… illuminates the day with true love

This day, another man will dance with his wife for the first time…
Holding her the way she wants to be hold
Kissing her the way she wants to be kissed
Keeping her in the lover’s arms… where she will be comforted

Moving her securely, while the excited guests glow with excitement and well wishes
Songs of love will keep a husband and wife on the track of forever…
Moments of intimacy will solidify the relationship
Being real to the sacred promises before God…
Will result in a union of eternal rewards

This day, another groom will take his wife home…
for the first time
There, they will begin to grow unitedly and as a holy family



God bless….......................!!!



end....selamat ketemu lg...

love,
.nadea

gloomy.gloomy.Day-_-

wahhh..harini muram betul...
muram bcause of:

1)cuaca mendung jer
2)takde mood
3)i'm soooo sleepyyy
4)terlampau banyak keja..(tp tak buat pon)

since tengah hari td hujan jer..mata pon berat..
si marqish yg since pagi2 buta td panjat tingkap bilik aku,da tidur ngan lenanyer..
seronok gile dia tido...atas katil aku plak tu..katil aku da jadi cam katil dia da..

keja dari tadi tak jalan...ntah mane 1 keja nak buat dlu pon taktau..
bukan takmau buat...ade jugak tgk2 and search something but tak lama sebab-ngantuk..
huhuhu...masa pon berlalu terlalu pantas...
dan akhirnyer keja aku tertangguh...isk...isk;((
hurm....petang nk dekat2 senja ni mcm panas pulak cuaca..
panas terik pulak tiba2!jgn hujan panas plak kjap lagi suda
baru decide nk jalan2 g ke kedai ptg ni smbil menghirup udara yg nk kata segar tak segar sgt la..
tp disebabkan seharian dok terperap lam bilik dan kepale pn da naik pusing betterlah keluar.
then now,kena tgu redup skit la nmpaknyer..huhu

aduhhhh..bosannnyerrrrrrrrrrr..
camni la if hjung2 mgu kat hostel..
orng ckp bosan gila tahap dewa+gaban...heheh..;-/

love,
.nadea